Help
I was baptized back during the nativity season last year. Ever since I’ve been baptized it’s like not the same anymore. I mean I don’t feel close to God anymore. I get a bad feeling when I pray. To the point i pray less now. I only go to church on Sunday’s when I used to go three times a week due to my work schedule and not having a car. I would like to go more. I also started dating a Greek Orthodox cradle man and we haven’t been behaving in the eyes of God and we struggle with this a lot although we’ve both been to confession for it and always feel shame and we work on it. I fast, try to pray, try to spend time with God. I just don’t have the same drive I did as a catechumen to learn lives of the saints and stuff like that idk. I was committing the same sins back then as now only difference is now I can take proper confession and the other sacraments. And now I have full icon corner that I would’ve died for a year ago and now I barely use… I really want to feel close to God as I used to. I know it’s not about feelings it’s about denying yourself and picking up your cross. I’ve left a lot of things behind since my baptism. But have still held on to some sins of course. Any advice???