u/lavalierseason

Hey folks,

Can anyone point me to any books/sites/articles that explain how legalisation came about in the UK? Thanks! 💚

Hey folks,

I've thought so many times about posting this but have been scared to, it feels very raw.

I'm a cannabis newbie, 14 weeks into MC with Alternaleaf.

My journey with MC has not been smooth or pleasant. I medicate daily and I'd say at least half of my experiences so far have been negative, with a good few being hellish. I've tried varying the dose and temp, as well as using balanced strains, adding in CBD etc but am still struggling with awful thoughts and feelings when medicating. Often cannabis makes my pain and neuropathy, RLS etc worse instead of better. I regularly want to hurl my stash into some faraway bin and never go near cannabis again.

The reason I haven't done this is because after eight years of near-total incarceration due to extreme agoraphobia, since MC I've been able to walk the dog a few times, and attend a local day centre that I've wanted to go to for years. I've been able to reduce my reliance on opioids massively. I also know that I can't cope without *something* (whatever that may be) to turn to for pain and for when my mental ill-health overwhelms me. Obviously this might turn out not to be cannabis, but I'm loath to return to the Tramadol that has effectively zoned me out for the last decade.

The experience of using cannabis has brought up some difficult psychological issues for me, and I would really like to be able to talk them over with a therapist. Ideally I would like to find someone who has used/uses cannabis themself and can understand the insights that cannabis gives into one's own mind/thought processes/coping mechanisms etc, as well as being able to understand the nuances of choosing/not choosing to use MC.

I'm sure such people exist, but so far everyone I've found has been addiction focused which isn't what I'm seeking right now. I am also not especially enamoured with the idea of approaching my prescriber based on my experiences with them so far.

Can anyone help?

Thanks 💜

Edited to add screenshot of my strain tracker showing how I've gotten on with each one so far.

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Hey lovely people inside my computer, I wonder if you can help me again, please.

A few weeks ago, I asked if it's possible to "hate being stoned" and got loads of helpful advice ("Chill, Winston"). Since then I ordered two balanced strains which have been much more helpful with functioning (Apricot Cream & Cheese, and Pennywise).

However, they don't relax me or help my pain in the same way the heavier strains do and sometimes I feel like I have to puff constantly to cope and end up turning to my THC-heavier strains. Now re-ordering time approaches, and I have no idea what to order (I will get the PW but thought I could do with an indica type strain for my other choice, as my sleep is awful).

But only this week I've had several more bad experiences on the strong stuff, it's like I can't reach any level of relaxation without having some horrific experience. It's hard to describe what these bad trips actually feel like but the closest I can get is that scene in Trainspotting when Renton is hallucinating the gameshow. Trapped in a loop of unpleasant weirdness, feeling like my legs aren't there when I try to stand...and none of this feels nice, it feels like someone is standing next to me with a cattle prod, and every time I recover from being prodded, they hit me with another blast. Over and over. (Thank the gods for pepper, my saviour!)

I just wondered if anyone out there has gone through anything similar and can help at all? I've gone from feeling so desperate about my health, struggling to justify the cost of MC, to coming round to the idea and hoping that cannabis might possibly help me get off the opiates, tp feeling like yet another door is slamming before me. Now I feel so broken, like I was shit at life-ing and now I can't even enjoy myself right...

Sorry for the pity party, at the end of the day I'm on weed because I struggle, and this is yet another thing I'm fkn struggling with!

BTW - I'm vaping XMax Pro v3 dosing caps and I ususally temp step. I use about 0.5-6g a day.

Hey everyone, having a bit of a panic here as it's my first review with Alternaleaf tomorrow morning and despite leaving time to do my research, the more I read, the more I become confused and overwhelmed!

I'm a MC newbie, been at it for a week now and I've been really careful to keep checking in with myself to gauge effects on body/mind/mood etc. TBH it's been horrible because the whole experience reminds me of my drinking days, feeling out of control and sort of trapped in a bad dream. I can't bear the feeling of trying to do something but then still be sat in the same position a few minutes later, this same cycle repeated over and over until I manage to actually follow through on that thought. I also hate how it's making me vague and forgetful.

I totally appreciate that this is my first experience and there are many factors that will affect my own experience (including the fact that I'm a pretty tense person), but when I speak to the pharmacist, how will I know what to ask for this time around.

I had in mind Apricot Cream and Cheese due to the balanced ratio and terpene profule but I would love any guidance.

I'm with Alternaleaf/Montu and suffer from chronic pain (wanting to quit my opioids altho this seems like it might be just as addictive for me), severe anxiety/agoraphobia, and AuDHD. This last month I got Frosted Cookies which I don't really like for the reasons outlined above, and Berry Cream Puff, which I prefer but can't say I love. I am vaping flower, I did try pastilles but I hated feeling so out of control.

Thanks so much for any advice. 💖💖💖