u/lightningbug822

i had what i think was a spontaneous kundalini awakening back in november. i’d quit weed a few weeks before after years of heavy usage and i was also processing an abusive relationship that i’d been caught in rumination spirals over. at one point i started doing some basic inner child work using IFS and i could like actually see my parts in the room with me as i worked with them and i could feel massive energy shifts throughout my body as i healed my parts and processed years and years and years worth of trauma. i think did too much too quickly and ended up with some minor delusions because my pattern recognition brain was going into overdrive but it was still an incredibly blissful and embodying experience that left me feeling an insane amount of love and connection to the world around me. i’d also never felt so present and grounded. for a few days i had this white python coiled around my torso with its head facing forwards, parallel to mine. and as i shifted into the afterglow the python morphed into this flashing rainbow display, ascended to the ceiling, and then dropped down through my mouth and into my throat and then settled in my lower torso.

about a month later my autoimmune issues flared badly and i spent january and february in constant severe pain. i’ve also been through a couple of other severe traumas since, and im still standing specifically because my kundalini was awakened i think but it also feels like it’s been dampened and i feel somewhat cut off from it.

over the last week i’ve started feeling a neutral pressure in my ajna chakra, as well as random phantom ant sensations on my skin which i assume is a prana thing. i think ive also had a few small nondual experiences with nature. i’m not really sure how to proceed. i still feel like a completely changed person, like my relationship to the world is just fundamentally different now. i just need some guidance i think, im not exactly sure how to move forward/interpret what ive already gone through spiritually