I plan to cut down this weekend so started naltrexone yesterday
I drink 2-3 generous vodka drinks most weekdays, and pretty heavy Friday night through Sunday. Very much look forward to it, and very much enjoy myself. Usually with a friend or two, and I’m the guy most people like to get drunk with…. Now, the weekday drinking has caught up to me. It harder to get up the next day, harder to think and I’m not my best self. I think I look bloated too.
It might sound like bullshit but I am just realizing that I’m an alcoholic. Not cry on the couch, sick or unproductive illness… but a I’m a straight up fucking alcoholic.. this realization just happened today. Now, really. This medication is doing something to me. Not even 48 hours have passed since my last weekday generous vodka drink… so it’s not that… that’s happens like every couple months. I think it’s the pill. I have only seen myself as a guy who likes to drink and get drunk, and has fun doing it. It like someone gave me access to the clarity I have with a bad hangover .. when I’m certain I drink too much and need to cut down so I never feel this way again.
This is messing up my head and my weekend plans.