being lost in your 30s
so for not so recently.. i lost my job due to the toxicity of the people on that job. it was the career i worked so hard for. a career i think i was really good at, considering i’ve never applied to any company because i always get recruited. but when i got into this company, my boss bullied me and made me believe i wasn’t good enough and that i suck at this job. spreading it all around the office, so i quit. I didn’t wanna stay in an environment that was slowly taking my confidence out.
now it’s almost a year since then. I never really got myself into this kind of unemployment before. I was always the kind to juggle 3 jobs and still be good at every single one of it. but i guess for this company, it was different.
I’m not doing okay now because I’m definitely lost.
it’s like I’m starting to think that despite my 13 page CV, by being recruited anywhere and my achievements I’m starting to think that maybe some things she made me believe was right.
I’m just so lost now. I used to be the one who always knew where she’s headed, but now, i’m just lost.
I’m grieving the old me. :(