I feel bad for being so upset
I hung out with my boyfriend tonight. We saw a movie and got some food. When he picked me up, he said he had a headache but I attributed it to the warm weather and possible dehydration. We ate before the movie. Then after the movie, he says his stomach hurts but not like he’s going to throw up. I told myself it was just because he had so much food and a drink on top of it. He dropped me back at home and we kissed before saying goodbye. Then maybe 30 minutes later he tells me he threw up. I immediately got upset at him and I feel like an asshole for that. I know he only told me his stomach hurt because it would have made me more anxious if he had said he felt queasy.
I’m mad that he still kissed me when he knew he was nauseous. I just feel like he doesn’t know how terrifying getting sick would be for me or maybe he did know and acted selfishly. I am kind of spiraling because my anxiety has been so high lately and I am worried because I know there are viruses that have been going around.
I just started an SSRI for my anxiety and I’m already terrified at the possibility of GI side effects but also my doctor said it will make my anxiety worse before it gets better and I’m in the “worse” stage right now. Someone please help me calm down a bit.