"Emotional blunting" on daily Nal/Vivitrol
I've been on Viv for ~3 years, it's been a life saver!! For me, "no effect = no desire," and I'm covered for the whole month! It's taken alcohol off the table for the first time *ever.* That said, I've found that I don't get nearly the enjoyment from activities that I used to. From social events to concerts which are a huge highlight of my life, and even sex, I'm feeling flat or disconnected. I really think this is a result of the medication on "feel good" chemicals like dopamine, serotonin and endorphins. I just can't access peak experiences any more, and it's increasingly apparent. Have you had this experience??
For this reason I'm considering going off the meds, or trying another avenue (Campral). It's a huge shift though, because after 20+ years of struggle, chronic relapse, "hitting bottom" and losing literally *everything* this med really was a game changer. On one hand I think "if it ain't broke, why fix it?" On the other, it has given me an emotional stability that makes me want to **appreciate** the good things in this life I've created!! Although I've done a lot of work on my compulsion, I also worry that without the euphoria-blocking aspect I will risk going back to old behavior. I know I'm NOT powerless, and the choice is up to me, but that feature has strongly reinforced my desire to be AF. I welcome your experience and feedback as I face this decision.