u/mokaneptune

i found a wild mouse in my house, chased by my cats. i tried to rehabilitate her but unfortunately she ended up passing away. As i sat there holding the dying mouse, the grief hit me like a wall. it was almost like being back holding my soul dog as she passed away. i am inconsolable. to see death again after she took from me what i loved most. i fear my grief will consume me whole

in a month it will be a year since i've lost my soul dog and i feel like im going backward in my grief. I've started being irritated at nothing, crying easily and not wanting to do anything but curl up in my couch and rot. I don't want to go out or see anyone. I cry almost every night and dream of her. I miss her so much. Only her could confort me right now. I would give everything to get my soulmate back.