Hi Hi, hope everyone is doing well. Im looking for some food suggestions that you found safe to eat during your treatments? I have weekly chemo and daily radiation so food hasn't been appealing to me at all, but I recently found strawberry sherbet popsicles and grapes are okay! As well as plain pasta with margarine. (Butter seemed to upset my stomach).
I've been lurking on this sub since joining and reading every ones stories and it made me feel optimistic seeing the successes people had, and how things were going, and the positivity they had regarding everything. Yeah, a lot of posts were hard reads, too. But seeing the community in the hard times made this feel a little lighter too.
I guess I'm just reaching my breaking point, too.
I've been in the hospital for the past several days because of a severe hemorrhage due to my tumors that nearly cost me my life. I couldn't even hold myself up. I was scared I was going to die. I needed several transfusions just to become stable again. And now I've been sitting here for days waiting for my oophoropexy so, maybe, I can start treatment by the end of the week or early next week.
It all just feels too late, or that even if this gets resolved everything thats been happening over the last 2 years has caused it to cultivate all over and now I don't have a chance.
A little bit of background, I had my first pap in july of 2024 after some light but irregular spotting. I tested positive for HPV, and was referred to a hospital for my colpo. They told me no, questioned why I even needed one because I was so old. (at that time I was only 25, and I'm only 27 now.) and that I should just wait and see if my symptoms go away. Then they proceeded to berate me for not wanting to be on birth control for another 30 minutes before sending me away. All that to say, without experiencing any other symptoms until october of 2025, I did as they said and waited. Until i was able to get in at the beginning of January of this year for a new pap, colpo in february, and PET/MRI in march with the diagnosis of stage 3C1. But now I feel maybe it was growing inside me the entire time and my fear of getting yelled at again or making a big deal of nothing is going to cost me my life.
I honestly don't know how to feel or what to think anymore. It's been taking everything in me not to break down and give up but it's so insanely hard. I'm sitting here writing this from my hospital bed because I guess I'm hoping some of you have advice on what kept you going, or any advice you may have. Or just sharing your stories with me. I'm sure writing all of this out will be a weight lifted for once, too.