bro this is bullshit. I literally logged one thing 3 hours too late, even though I turned it in on time 3 days earlier. I was early or on time for every other bs assignment and logbook thing. Honored the shelf. Honored the clinical evals. One single logbook slip. pmo for real
Probably going to delete this later as I'm sure someone could figure out who I am.
I'm just having a rough time. Rotations feel incredibly lonely. I am the type to work hard when I'm somewhere because I like to work, and I like to be busy. I don't expect anyone else to do that and I don't judge them for doing it or not doing it. I try to be friendly, I try to be helpful, and I try to learn.
I know I'm kind of awkward. I know I probably come off weird, that's ok. But this week has just been like... a resident left a comment for me essentially telling me I'm too much and I should watch what I say. Never said anything to me about this and I'm not even sure what they're referring to, but I feel like asking for more actionable feedback would just be confirming I'm too much and can't read the room. The other resident wrote that I'm overeager and need to slow down when I present or talk to patients, which is a much more actionable feedback and I accepted and appreciated it, but still makes me feel awkward because nothing was said when I could have corrected it.
Another student who was on with me last week was talking loudly on the phone a room over from me about how I was crazy and made him do way too much on our joint rotation in my specialty of interest (never asked him or told him or implied to him to do absolutely anything, I just did my own thing, we barely interacted and he's not into the specialty). Basically said a bunch of other students talk about me behind my back and call me crazy and a gunner for taking on patients or doing notes and discharge instructions. I'm not interested in a competitive specialty and I would never take an opportunity away from another student to do something.
I don't know. I don't want to go back and see these people tomorrow and pretend it's fine. Just have to accept that med school is going to be lonely for me. IDK.