First “cord cutting” at 3am and I can’t tell if I’ve seen “the spirit eyes” (pictured)
(Long post) Last night I did my first “cord cutting” ritual to cut my emotional ties to my ex. I’m unsure how I feel. He has a lot of his own deep hidden demons, like some pretty deep stuff I found out that has been hidden from me this entire time. Manipulation, lying, addictions, and very phycological abuse. I was left absolutely drained & in the ruins. I also have had multiple dreams during our relationship that has absolutely led me to find everything. Called crazy, I believed I was crazy. Until the grand final, I found all of it out except it was way worse than I ever imagined, but literally I dreamt of where to look. I have always had extremely strong dreams with passed ones & scenarios with relationships. They grow stronger as I grow older. (25) Every single time the relationship dreams literally become true. Sometimes- exactly how I dreamt it before hand. Had a dream of my horse in heaven I was saying goodbye. Next day he literally died unexpectedly. Other Ex’s bestfriend who died young telling me he’s cheating (he in fact sure was) Stuff like this. I always have a hard time believing in myself, thinking oh it’s just dreams or my mind, maybe past traumas but this most recent relationship, dreams, intuition, all turning out exactly how it was, has me believing way more than ever & starting to tap into it more.
I started with LOTS of protection. Ofc did tons of research too. I’m very careful. My energy, evil eye, spirit & soul, money. All of it. Then I moved onto glamor. To help me love myself more, improve confidence ect. I like have 0 self confidence after this relationship. Lowest I’ve been in years. Warded my name in protection ect.
I was doing really great until he contacted me again. All emotions came back and I HATE it. It’s like I’m back to ground 0. I struggle bad with letting go of people no matter how much they hurt me if I truly loved them. I promised myself absolutely no hexing/karmic/love spells as I am nervous but also believe karma is already real, and I will never force love. Well, I wanted to cut my emotional ties, and send all my hurt & emotions back to him, idk not for revenge but so he knows how it feels I guess? Maybe he will never hurt another girl like he has to me if he truly knows how bad it fucked me up.
The ritual felt good. I’d love to send the video of the cord cutting to anyone who asks to see it & read it. His flame reached my candle (on the left side) through the string. my candle cut the cord, the flame then traveled back to his candle, burnt the string all at his candle base then went up in flames for a while at the bottom of his candle.
Now, I’m just a little nervous tho. During this I was drinking some wine (not smart Ik but I like wine) and after the cord was cut, i immediately felt sick as fuck. I went to the bathroom, threw up a lot but only threw up one singular time- and that was it. I went back to my couch. Kinda like damn wtf? Waiting for the candles to burn out- it was about 3:15AM now. I randomly decided to pull out my phone & record? Idk why.
Then that’s when I saw it. The 2 glowing “eyes” in the doorway of my bedroom. The pic was a screenshot from the video. Me myself tho, I did not feel scared at all? I am completely unsure if it was possibly some sort of light reflection on my camera? There was no 2 lights that could possibly show in my doorway like that. The 2 “eyes” didn’t move when I moved my camera, but then did move and float upward, dissapeared then came but but acted like it was some sort of reflection. I truly can’t tell. I feel if it was evil I would have absolutely sensed the energy & felt scared. I didn’t do a whole lot of protection to start for this, just shook my protection jars, lots of vocal protection phrases and clensing my space a ton with insence before any spells, and make my intentions very clear to get any negativity away.
Either or, I still started praying saying our father and Hail Mary, rebuking any negitive entities cause FUCK that. I believe in god & always want to keep my space, intentions and spirit pure, the ONE time I do a slight ballsy spell this happens LMFAO
Has anyone ever had this experience before? Getting sick after something like this, or was it literally just the wine? Idk. It’s been months since I got sick from drinking. The “eyes” or reflection of light? Idk. Sometimes since I started spelljars I swear I see a movement shadow in the corner of my eye at times. I always think oh it’s just me getting used to living alone again. But the other part of me always wonders. I just do not way to condone any evil or negative energy. I think I’m going to take a lil break from spells lol