Anyone else feel dumb and worthless while job hunting?
It’s been about 4 weeks since I started seriously applying for jobs. I know that’s not long compared to many people here, but mentally, this process has hit me harder than I expected.
For context: I’ve been freelancing and self-employed since I was 18. Privileged to have autonomy over my schedule, work remotely, travel, and build a lifestyle that was exciting and meaningful to me. But over the past year, especially with the current economy, my clients gradually stopped renewing and by December 2025, I pretty much had to start from zero again. At first, it didn’t stress me out that much. I still had savings, was travelling around Europe, travelled to cities like London, and honestly still felt very alive and hopeful. But after moving back home to Southeast Asia two months ago, I feel more shit than ever. I live in one of the most expensive countries in the world, and for the first time in my life, I’m trying to enter the corporate world properly.
I feel like I don’t even recognise myself anymore. Going from running my own thing, travelling, working from cafes on projects I genuinely cared about… to refreshing LinkedIn every 10 minutes looking for a new listing, drafting up a new resume with Claude, and hearing nothing back. I also feel insecure because I don’t have the “traditional” background most applicants have. I don't have that many internships, no long corporate history, just years of freelancing and building things on my own (which isn't appreciated in my country at all).
The hardest part, honestly, isn’t even the financial stress. It’s the hit to self-esteem and identity. You start questioning your worth, your choices, your future… everything.
I’ve also drifted from a lot of friends after living abroad, so this whole period feels surprisingly lonely. Trying to stay optimistic and remind myself that maybe this season is happening for a reason, but some days are definitely harder than others.
For those who eventually landed a role:
- How long did it take you?
- What helped the most?
- Any advice for someone transitioning from freelancing/self-employment into corporate?
I’ve mainly been applying through LinkedIn, Indeed, and We Work Remotely. Would genuinely appreciate hearing other people’s experiences.