Officially on 5mg now. Scared, excited and a little bit sad.
Today is jab day and I’ve just administered my 8th dose and my first ever dose of 5mg. A part of me is gutted I’m no longer on 2.5mg as it was working amazing… until it didn’t. Im too stubborn to admit that 2.5mg just isn’t working for me anymore and for someone like me who has a lot of weight to shed, I was lucky that it worked for as long as it did and as well as it did. (6 weeks.)
The last 7 days in particular have been quite difficult. I slid back into my old habits e.g. snacking and drinking sugary foods, eating takeaways (I’ve ordered 3 since last week), my cavernous appetite making a return and just feeling demotivated overall. Although I have bounced back and ensured I still ate healthy too.
I had some thoughts about what is going to happen when I eventually come off this medication during the midst of this difficult week which has made those feelings of hopelessness come back. Because when 5mg no longer works, I’ll have to titrate up to 7.5, and then 10 and then so on. I know the jab isn’t magic and you’re supposed to do the work and eat in a calorie deficit and exercise but the return of my food noise and cravings and old habits were all too easy and scary. I felt like I was back in prison again.
I guess we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it. But for now it feels like I’m entering a new chapter in my journey with the new dosage. I’ll continue to eat high protein, high fibre, nutrient dense whole foods, stay hydrated and continue my gym routine. I look forward to shedding some more weight and I hope I can stay on 5mg a lot longer this time. I really want to avoid having to titrate up unless I absolutely have to so I will do everything I can to support that.