i cried whilst giving my best friend her 21st birthday speech, im both proud of myself but now i cannot shake this embarrassment
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long story short i have bad anxiety and it took a lot of courage to get up there and speak in front of her whole family and many friends i never knew, but i did it.
my heart was POUNDING. but i kept a brave face and it was going well until not even halfway my voice started wavering and i started crying and slightly shaking (im usually a bit of a crybaby and im an emotional person), and i seriously could not stop my voice from shaking and i kept laughing at myself because i was so flustered. i got through the speech and saw her mum crying which made me cry more.
the few days afterwards im just so embarrassed and cant shake this feeling of me crying in front of that many people. they all said my speech was beautiful and to be honest it was really heartfelt and got some laughs. but UGH its given me confidence but also made me feel so weird because im one to keep my emotions private.
nevertheless im so proud that i didnt let my anxiety win, i was so stressed the whole night and this speech felt so awkward and her friends comforted me after saying i did well but i cant tell if they were just saying that haha. if i cried at her 21st im going to be in shambles whenever she gets married