u/pumpkinjumper1210

I've been wondering about the position/direction of eyes creating "shines". I started noticing certain passes would cause bright lights to show up and also noticed bright lights happening in the day, not practicing, but usually from turning my head.

The dreaming passes were the ones most prominently and consistently, with big rings of light showing up "in" my eyes on the first pass. In the Dreaming Passes video, Jadey points out the Magical Passes book has the sorcerer in the image swinging his arm further back and he's looking further back towards his extended hand.

A conjecture: Going with the idea that there are certain positions of the eyes which can result in magic (the shines), I think the passes force/cause/assist in the eyes moving to/through those positions.

I was experimenting doing the first dreaming pass then trying to just turn my head (and thus eyes), and would still get the rings of light, sometimes. Not at all as consistently as doing the pass, but somewhat reliable.

I was able to replicate lights today on one of the later dreaming passes, the one where you turn to both sides before throwing the arm forward like throwing a disc. Whenever I would turn my head to the right then left, a quick vertical light showed up (about 90% of the time) to my right. I could then turn my head to the right (without doing the arm motion of the pass) and back to left, and saw the light flash some of the time (about 50%)

I thought it might be a vertical seam in the hotel wall reflecting light of a fire alarm light so I stared at the seam for a while, nothing, then I tried doing the pass at a faster rate and consistently saw the vertical light flash.

Maybe we can use our head turns to look for magic in the day, while out in public?

So in all of my recaps, the internal dialogue has always felt like "my thoughts" and I'm reviewing "my thoughts", my experiences, my perception etc. I was on a plane and put on a movie, then remembered this comment "there is nothing stopping you from recapitulating six hours daily, it does not have to be suffering" from https://www.reddit.com/r/castaneda/comments/1w4jgq4/comment/p7jhxiu/ and powered down the screen, put my sleep mask on, and started recapping.

The first one I did was about the pilot and the pretty stewardess who were happily chatting at the front of the plane. When I saw how she was giving him attention and he was happily chatting, the dialogue started running about how my work sucks because I don't have a pretty coworker talking to me all day, and on that lines. But I noticed I didn't actually feel that jealous, it was like I "could" feel jealous or my default behavior "should" feel jealous. I would actually be miserable flying so often without extended breaks, and serving on a plane is definitely not something I have an interest in doing.

Then I recapped my neighbor, who had wanted to get up to use the bathroom, and didn't want to wait 2 minutes for the flight staff to move their tray out of the way so I could get out. At the time I felt sort of offended on behalf of myself and "decency" like, "oh she can't wait 2 minutes, doesn't she see people are moving out of the way!"

In recapping both of these the thoughts seemed to be not my own. I discovered I really thought I found my neighbor's behavior funny and inspiring, because she was willing to speak up when she needed something. And she wasn't actually inconveniencing anyone much, it wasn't hard for me to walk forward to an empty seat and let her squeeze past. So I had a set of two feelings, 1 was my default reaction of indignation in both cases, and underneath I felt much milder and unoffended feelings.

So what were the original thoughts? It was the first time I felt like I was observing them as things that weren't a part of me.

Experience report. Time was around 2am. I recapitulated a few experiences from the day. I started thinking about a specific restaurant I ate at recently, noticed my thoughts kept sticking there so I started working through recapitulating my observations of the different groups of people at the restaurant.

I think I finished going through everyone at the restaurant. I remember continuing the breath pattern and briefly wondering who I should recapitulate about next. Then I was aware of being in a car and looking at the car. The fidelity stuck at low for a few seconds, then it jumped up to high and I was experiencing being in the car, driving. At the same time I felt myself in the bed, trying to do the breath. I can't be certain my head kept moving in the bed, I knew I was meaning to do the breath but I stopped being so aware of the head turning and breath. At the same time I was looking out the windshield from a car, driving in a hilly, winding road.

After driving for a few seconds (at least 10, probably not more than a few minutes), the scene changed and I felt like I decided to stop following the car view. I was "back" in my bed (never felt like I left, knew I was sitting in bed the whole time). I woke up feeling very amazing and annoyed, because my head was leaning back against the wall and the 2 pillows I had for back support did not make for good neck support. I felt a strong urge to get up and post about it here, something like "that was so cool, I should share this with the Castaneda subreddit, they'll love this!" and even stronger was a desire: "I really don't want to get out of bed, I especially do not want to turn the lights on, I am tired, my neck hurts, I want to go to sleep, I don't care how amazing it was, I'll write about it later" and I moved back and forth and felt comedic at how strong the latter desire was.

I still feel amazed by it, I'm not used to feeling I'm in 2 places at once. Both the move "into" the scene and "out" of the scene felt like non-verbal decisions I made.

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