Meta vs Phallo, UL, no vaginectomy surgery options/advice?
Hi, I’m a trans man and trying to figure out what surgery’s I intend to get in the long term so I can start the process and eventually be happy with my body. I’ve been on T since 2019 and had top surgery in 2021. I live in Ontario, Canada, I know surgery is covered by our healthcare but I don’t know the full details, I’ll be restricted in that sense as I can’t afford to pay out of pocket.
I’ve known that bottom surgery is something I’d be wanting eventually but haven’t made up my mind on which kind. I’m conflicted for a few reasons: I want UL, I’d really like to be able to stp (it’s something I have quite a bit of dysphoria over), but I also don’t want to get a vaginectomy (I don’t like anal sex). I don’t think I want scrotoplasty but I could go either way.
Meta is the surgery I’ve done more research into, based on my growth from T I think I could be happy with this but from what I’ve seen it’s really both or neither for UL and vaginectomy. If this is what I settle on how do i decide between them? Has anyone gone through this? How did you decide? As I said before I have a lot of dysphoria about not being able to stp, I don’t want a vaginectomy because having the hole itself has never bothered me (I still plan on a complete hysterectomy) and I like it for sex as I don’t like anal.
Phallo is something I haven’t looked that much into, penetrating during sex or having a bigger dick isn’t that big of a deal for me which is why I lean towards meta but if it’s possible to have UL and no v-ectomy will phallo I’d definitely look into. My main concerns with phallo are the appearance and healing process, I know everybody’s different and I’m scared if I did have it that I’d end up unhappy with the appearance. My other fear is that I won’t do well with the healing process from the skin they take, I have a skin picking disorder and I can’t stop myself from scratching/picking at “unsmooth” skin, especially on my arms/face/head/chest, I’ve seen pictures of the healing process and I don’t think I’d handle such a large scabbing area.
Any advice/insight would be greatly appreciated.