24M lost in life don't know what to do pls help
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I'm a 2025 graduate in Electronics Engineering currently I'm 24. Never learned coding in college ( was interested in electronics job) but didn't learn any proper or industrial software for coding either
After graduating did my absolute best to get a job in my final year gave TCS interview twice , cognizant, EY, Wipro, Deloitte you name it. Always failed
So last year i decided to prepare for Gate for my Mtech failed cutoff by 2-3 marks
Now I'm already almost 9-10 months jobless if I don't get a job then there will be a year gap after my graduation then everyone will question what was I doing
After some jugar and literally begging to every relative they got me a job as software support engineer at a firm ( who's name i cannot say cause I signed papers where i can't disclose their name or what work I do there )
Worst mistake of my life today was my 2nd day at that company, I can't use phone at that firm cause of data leak policy nor do I have access to internet. I work from 9am to 7pm a few minutes here and there they'll deduct my half day salary it takes 1 hr to commute from home and 1 hr to commute back
In total i spend 12 hrs of my life for this work. I told my family how will I survive? Today they scolded me a ton saying the job market is too bad and how can you say you wanted to leave this job after only 2 days working there (it's not an MNC) . Wanted to work in electronics field but life isn't fair and there's not a single day I don't blame myself for not working harder in college or preparing more seriously for gate
This year my dad will retire. I don't have money to study from private colleges like VIT or KIIT for my Mtech i can't afford also not even sure I'll even get anything after MTech from these colleges
Worst case I'll be jobless + 10-15 Lakh in debt ( my family will take a loan if I study in pvt college )
This 12 hrs of work is too much for me also I can't use phone in workplace like they'll terminate me immediately if they find ( it's strictly prohibited )
How will I upskill myself if I return home tired? I just fall asleep. It's my first corporate job. I have a contract of 2 years if I leave before I need to pay them 2 months of salary as a bond/security.
No one is understanding me I'm really depressed thinking i have to work for 2 yrs here. My family members keep telling me it's normal and my relatives say if you don't work hard now how will you grow?
How can overworking with no work life balance = hardwork
All the people working here are the age of my father I don't even have anyone to talk with. Pls tell me what should I do I'm really lost pls help me
TLDR ; wasted 8-9 months preparing for Gate didn't qualify and now I'm stuck in a hellish 12 hr corporate job with minimum pay and 2 years of bond. Don't know if I should stay or do something else