Feeling like a personal failure…
Anyone else feel like being on SSRI’s is a personal failure? I know logically it’s not. But I can’t shake this feeling for my case.
I had to go on them during my PhD program because I overworked myself and gave myself severe adrenaline surges and insomnia. Like, I didn’t sleep for 7 days.
I only needed the lowest dose of lexapro, but I didn’t go up when I needed to and depended on hydroxyzine to get me through my last year (job market/defense). It pooped out and now I’m on Prozac trying to adjust. Still dependent on hydroxyzine as it adjusts.
I just feel like I broke my brain and it’ll never recover. I also feel like I’m never going to be in a period of my life where I’m not stressed. Also, playing the adjustment game and finding the right stuff, that might poop out, just sucks. Feeling down in the dumps about it.
If anyone wants to talk me out of it, please do!