Obsessive thoughts
Ever since i learned about death as i very young child, the idea of it left me traumatized, so much so that i would find myself imagining the worst happening to my loved ones and genuinely break down crying as if it actually happened. But lately it has gotten so much worse. I have been obsessively thinking about my sister dying and how it would absolutely break me and cry over it like i'm alr grieving when she's very much alive and well. Idk if im predicting something, or im just very mentally ill, or i just miss her a lot because im in college now and we don't live in the same country. Regardless, these breakdowns happen every other day, and they make me feel crazy because she is alive and i am acting as if she is not. Should i seek medical help or is it something more spiritual ?
PS: I'm scared of posting this and accidentally manifesting it into existence bro but i need answers be this situation has made me very depressed