Degree Regrets
Hey everyone,
I am currently going into my fourth year as an English Education major, and I have never regretted anything more in my life.
I've always wanted to become a teacher, but after my first semester in college I was quick to realize I was too mentally ill to handle it. I ended up attempting to commit suicide, and it obviously did not work.
I felt like a failure. Everyone pressured me to keep going and that I will like it eventually, etc etc.
So I did. I didn't want to let anyone down like I did before.
Now I'm in Phase II, going to start the semester before student teaching, and I can't do it. I can't handle the schedule or stress of teaching.
I can't afford to change majors and restart. I haven't been able to work in three years due to the immense workload on top of my already failing mental health.
Now, I have hospital bills and student loans. It feels like the only thing left to do is attempt again and pray it works this time. I'm scared. It feels like my life has fallen apart and I'm only 20. I don't know what to do.
