I am struggling so much, I don't understand why I am having nearly this much trouble. Please help!
I have been technically playing guitar since about 2017 or 2018. I played almost every day until 2019, when I slowed down to a couple times a week, then once every other week, until eventually around 2021 I completely stopped. I am trying to get back into it, but for some reason, I'm completely fried. I'm not even talking about being rusty, it's more like I've never played before. Even this is understandable, if unfortunate. However, my problem is that I can't even practice correctly anymore. I try to practice at least every other day-- doing it every day was affecting my mood too much. Doing spider exercises, chord changing exercises, barres, it's like I have no connection to my hands anymore. I'm not fretting right, I'm hitting the totally wrong string, notes buzz or mute. I've been practicing to a metronome, and have been keeping it at around 60 bpm; I'm trying to practice slow, like you're supposed to. 60 is still too fast for me sometimes, and slip up on simple open chord changes. Sometimes I even forego the metronome just so I can practice even slower, and while it's not as egregious, I'm still making embarrassingly simple mistakes. I picked it up so easily when I first started, and now despite starting over from step 1, I'm having a harder time now than I did then. What should my next step be? I'm starting to feel hopeless, like I'm just never going to get it. Please give me advice, I love music so much and I want so badly to be good.