I’ve been in the oral birth control pill for 14 years
I’m (29F) and have been on the oral bc pill for 14 years pretty much straight through (small 4 month gap while dating a girl)
I mostly got on it because my periods were horrendous and of course I started having regular intercourse with my bf at the time
I have been on M A N Y different brands, some I loved that they stopped making (??) some I absolutely hated that made me feel psychotic
I’m on one now that’s actually alright
I love the freedom of being able to skip a period because of travel or an event or simply because I want to
I also do not want kids so this is just an ease of mind
I have been in a serious relationship for 5 years and within that time I have had my bc brand change 3-4x
And my sex drive has simply disappeared in the last year / year half
Not only towards my partner but by myself or even in thought it just doesnt seem to be a priority which is very unlike me
I’m thinking about getting off bc just to see my “natural state” and give myself a break
I think it’s messing up my brain chemistry for real
But I am terrified because I have become to dependent on it physically and mentally in terms of scheduling my periods and having the ease of mind of not getting pregnant
I have gone to so many doctors for hormone panels and blood tests and they all say “everything looks great” well I don’t feel great and I don’t know why or how but I just FEEL like it’s hormonal.
Has anyone else been through anything similar?
Any advice? Any words or encouragement?
I just feel kind of alone and need community right now 💕