My Sadness.
I was really happy moving to my new flat.
It has communal gardens and they looked sad and overgrown.
I have mental health issues and I feel sad at times.
Anyway I found as very overgrown patch and weeded it all. I started buying plants from the garden centre.
I was buying plants that were on their last legs and planting them. To see them flourish made me feel happy.
I wasn’t doing it to think I’m the best or anything it was giving me a purpose to live.
I felt the plants were like me dead inside and seeing them thrive made me happy.
Anyway one of the neighbours confronted me and said I’m trying to change everything and she had never met anyone like me. She has lived here 25 years..
I’m devastated and I couldn’t go outside today she said everyone is talking about me but honestly I wasn’t doing it to say I am the best.
I wasn’t doing it for my mental health.
I hate myself and I have been shaking all day and I hate myself.