It's never still
It's always loud
Like in my head there is a crowd
Of unanswered questions
And unfulfilled dreams
Always nagging me it seems
The why's never stop
And the ouch always screaming
Then here comes humor
Self deprecating
Sometimes honest in its approach
Mostly kicking me where it hurts most
Because as long as amusement
Fights despair
Maybe I'll stop losing all my hair
To the nightmares that creep up to frighten me
Some days apathy just sets
So heavy upon my neck
The weight of the world
Seems to rest on my shoulders
A near constant backpack and forth
Between what I loath
And I love most
The intricacy of my mind
Lagging behind
The experiences in life
That have betrayed me
It wasn't always friend or foe
That delivered a huge blow
To an ego created by attachments
I was only just a child
When materials were offered
As a response
From two wounded adults
That chose to have children
I write lots of things
Laced with bravery
Conjured from somewhere
I'm speaking into existence
If it weren't without thine
Own gaslighting of the mind
What would be left
But a void not so distant
Growing my own tree
Up my spine and in between
The courage to self reflect
Not project
On the past
And the pieces
I hope that one day, not three
The pieces start coming back to me
So I can go on and not abandon myself completely
So I just left the hospital, I was supposed to have my first mammogram. While I was checking in the nurse told me in their system they have me as AKA another person with the same first name but a different birthday. They had never seen this happen before.
Any ideas what happened?