depression during school
That’s really it. I graduate this year. Things are going fine just extremely busy and stressful. Very randomly without trigger, I have just been in a really bad place. I feel so isolated. my partner is so supportive I just feel like a complete drain of resources, all I do is take take take from my loved ones because of this season of life. I get married soon and I don’t feel I deserve it. I get sick thinking about it. Everyone asks me if we’re having kids someday and I just can’t even process that. People also constantly ask about job prospects and I am just too mentally wound up to even keep jobs straight, let alone apply and be my best self. I just saw my friends recently for a lunch date, I just feel like an alien. I even thought of how I could just easily end it with the access we have to paralytics. And yes I’m ashamed of that. And no I’m too much of a coward to actually do it. Sorry to bring the vibe down. Just wondering if anyone else feels like this. I know I need to get help I’m just really tired.