u/sleepybirdie420

Title basically. Whenever I go to the doctor I answer zero on all questions for the anxiety and depression questionnaire and always say I am not suicidal.

I feel fearful of telling them because in childhood I told them about my suicidal ideations and my parents committed me to a mental hospital. Now I have a very deep mistrust of doctors, therapists, and psychiatrists.

I am very depressed and I will kill myself in 3 years on a predetermined day. My anxiety grows as this date gets closer. I really need help. But I can’t talk to anyone.