Professor wants me to be kicked out of college.
Ok to preface this, I got my ADHD diagnosis in May, and I’ve been medicated for a little over a month now. Truly it feels so good to finally stop worrying about what is wrong with me, and spiraling over the question of why can’t I function as well as everyone else around me haha.
School has always been a mess for me. It was really showing in high school and it's been even worse in college. In particular, there's a lower level programming class that I’ve failed three times and withdrawn from once. (Yes, I know that’s terrible. Most people would take that as a sign to move on.)
They're offering it as an online class this summer. I’m at the point where I’m sick of this fucking class but I am adamant on passing it because I don’t want to just give up when I haven’t tried. I ended this past spring semester really shitty and I was just beside myself about it. I took two summer classes at the beginning of this summer and got A’s. (thank god for meds) So I don’t feel terrible about trying this class again.
There's a PhD student who is an instructor for the class and I just know I'm in his nightmares. Today I stumbled upon a Reddit comment he posted on a thread asking professors what teaching issues need to be addressed. His reply was: “Schools should kick students out if they fail a class more than 3 times. I have a student taking my class for the *sixth* time.”
I’m not mad at the instructor, I too would probably be irritated if I had a student continuously adding to my withdraw/fail rates. Seeing that comment though definitely fucks with my head a bit. I obviously was already embarrassed to be in this class a *fifth* time. And it's lovely knowing that the guy grading my assignments thinks I should be like banished from university for eternity. 😭😭