Hang in there
I remember many times back when...... my heart was failing, would beat out of control, got shocked by my defibrillator again and again, doctor mentioned heart transplant, rode an ambulance for the umpteenth time, met a bunch of doctors who kept talking about transplant this and transplant that, then got a transplant, endured a coma, woke up, felt something weird, back to the ER again. I was supposed to die many times. But this morning I woke up. I took a deep breathe. And I remembered, I'm still here.
And so are you.
Hang in there.