u/sososweet0

Hi, I just wanted to vent and find people who understand how I feel. I (F18) have had severe eczema since I was a child, and I feel like it's taking over my life completely. Usually, the most affected part of my body is my face but I'm currently having a really bad eczema flare-up; almost my entire body is covered in sores. Walking hurts, and stretching my arms feels like my skin is tearing. My face constantly feels hot, and I wake up every night with bloodstains on my sheets and clothes. I also leave a lot of skin flakes everywhere and I can't even cry because my tears worsen the redness around my eyes. I feel disgusting and dirty all the time, and I don't feel capable of doing anything. When I'm studying, all I can think about is how hot my face feels and how much my body hurts. It frustrates me that my eczema is limiting my enjoyment of life and I feel like a burden to my mom who has had to spend a lot of money on different treatments.

Btw sorry if my english is bad.

I think I have a very negative view of life, and I wanted to know if anyone else feels the same way. I've always thought that life isn't all that great and that the effort far outweighs the reward. The thought of having to study, work, and generally do things that require a lot of effort my whole life doesn't appeal to me. I'm not suicidal, but I don't want to live to old age; the idea of ​​living that long doesn't appeal to me.