"What's your pursuit for your happiness?"
Look, i thought it was exploring, gaming, working, relationships, my own kids when i wasn't ready eee yuhp.. but scratch that 20 fkn psych ward visits having all the freetime in the world to try make alot of money real quick, 9years later my brain is fried from thinking too much, all i hear is words and ideas, theories. I regret it so much. What i would give to know about just 1 field, friends and a wage above 1k to blow a week doing whatever i want in this beautiful already built world. Fk it enjoy it and stop trying to embarrass eachother; don't be so confident you can just be somebody, how many on the dole now and there's only gonna be more. Pick a field a trade do whatever but do it within the laws and be reapectful and try not to sound too whiny when complaining; i thought i wanted everything. Now i got nothing and now what i know i would trade all that for this exact position i'm in to now live my life. 1 course, confident a lil but anxious about it. But again, to think of memories with people instead of nonstop information words and explainations and definitions for no reason would be amazing; don't be a know it all, can't wait to learn 1 field and just do that ahh sweet simple same 4 words and what 1 word every 1 hr? think about it ahh the internal silence. You don't want to know 40 things about 40 things and be constantly on autopilot thinking about a combination of those to combine to make 80things and 240 things. Etc. Like. It's broke my value and my old ability and i'm also alot more unromantic platonic courteous not cocky or seeking for reassurance. To regulate yourself is the best thing ever; simple is beautiful; 'simple,' 'good ambience,' that's my happy at the end of my 29 year pursuit; what's yours?