After a while, the magnetism becomes frustrating
If you’re truly on this path for god, then being magnetizing to women that would inevitably lower your vibration and steal your energy after a while becomes incredibly frustrating. The women that are easy to date you typically don’t want for obvious reasons, the women you do want to date act avoidant around you bc they don’t understand why they feel the way about you that they do and have a hard time trusting bc you would have all the power, and then men are extremely polarized by you so about 7-9 out of 10 men give weird insecure energy around you for just existing. Once you’ve had multiple 90 day streaks and can retain fairly easily this is just the natural state of being unless you completely fall off. It gets really lonely.
Prioritizing god is extremely uncomfortable. blissful and insanely rewarding beyond anything the flesh provides but man. Would be nice to meet ONE woman who can meet me where I’m at energetically. I would gladly wait til marriage for sex if I met that person. But our world makes that almost impossible.
Obviously the alternative cycle of samsara is worse. But damn some days I just want more humans to get their shit straight