Suffering from sensibility and energetic intensity
I had a kundalini awakening two years ago and since then I developed the capacity to channel, I can channel God (which I think it is God) and channel spirits from the spiritual world, I can aways talk to them and they are aways helping me internally feel better and to heal, I talk to them and they aways support me. At first I had trouble channeling but now I can channel Very well, except when there are distortions which dont let me channel correctly.
But now the problem is that I suffered a heavy trauma at the start of the year because what I was channeling was promissing me what later confirmed would never really happen, because I invented all that bullshit and since then I am suffering from high sensibility and energetic intensity, my thoughts have more power over me and I feel an enormous heat in my chest that I cannot get it out.
I made many imagination exercises to feel more normal and not this intensity, I have many moments where I do strong moments where the energy overloaded seems to go out of me, I am consuming pills recomended by my psychiatrist to make me feel normal again, but I continue to feel this extreme sensibility.
It is really doing harm to me, people around me annoy me, I am aways feeling spiritually disturbed, I feel emotionally unstable much of the time and it makes me unable to live a normal life in society (I dont work and I cant see myself working most jobs in this state), the moment I have a conversation with someone I suddenly feel nervous and have to breathe because it is too intense.
What can I do to be normal again?