I'm sick of this phobia
I'm so so SO sick of this phobia.
It has gotten so bad that just reading this subreddit makes me sick to my stomach. I have visited the airport for exposure therapy, walking around and watching planes take off, and that was honestly pretty enjoyable, but I think it's because I knew I wasn't actually getting on the plane. I'm not sure if I could bear to set my foot in the airport otherwise.
My last flight was around 10 years ago, and it was pretty smooth. I've also had people in my life reassure me that turbulence isn't that bad. But then I see posts here of turbulence that feels like a rollercoaster, like the plane is dropping out of the sky, and where people are sweating, puking, and gripping their seats. The fear of experiencing this and not knowing when it'd start, how bad it'll get, and when it stop is too much for me. Even if my flight is statistically more likely to be smooth, I'm unsure if I'll be able to overcome my own physical reaction to the fear when boarding in the chance I might experience that type of flight. I feel like there's nothing I can do but give up, and I feel like I've hit a wall.