u/studenttraderdk

So been off the nic completely for about 2 years.. boys trip to Rome had me relapse. Actually didnt start fully using again when i got back, which somehow made me believe that i could do pouches when drinking and then abstain otherwise.. boy was i wrong. I'm now back on about a can a day for the past 4-5 weeks. Im very ashamed and cant really find it in me to get back on track.. anybody else experienced similar, and how did you find it in you to get your shit back together?