u/swtmourninglamb

okay i meant to write about this a few days ago but many people on tiktok who have had anorexia say they’ve dealt with BED afterwards. i’ve seen multiple creators say this (for example nessa barrett on tiktok) and is it fair to call it bed if they’ve been starving themselves? because i’m in a similar situation recovering from anorexia and i don’t see it as bed. i see it as ur body trying to recover from extreme restriction and its basically just extreme hunger. so idk ?! this is probably a dumb take but im just curious. i guess i just see bed as something more emotional and maybe for them it was, but there’s times in my own recovery where im like am i just binging? ive gained like 20lbs in a month and am now considered overweight (according to my bmi) and whenever i do have these thoughts im just reminded that i was literally malnourished and my body is trying to recover. so if im eating a lot and bloating a LOT im just reminded that my body needs this. even if my stomach is full my brain is still starving. some days are better than others (usually days when im busy with work etc im not extremely hungry)

hi everyone if you can relate lmk bc i feel so bleh. i’ve been recovering for around a month now. i cut all exercise and restriction (and cal counting) and ive been going through EXTREME hunger for a few weeks now. i was in the 130s like a month or two ago and i weighed in a few weeks ago in the 150s so i can’t even imagine what i am now. the only thing im HATING so bad is the bloat. my lower belly is sooooo bloated. it literally feels heavy and it hurts. :( is there anything i can do to relieve the pain and potentially not have it bloat that much?? idk man i hate it. i went to the gyno last week to address the fact that i lost my period and have gained a lot and still haven’t gotten it yet. she said i might have PCOS and i got bloodwork done yesterday so im waiting for my results. as she was explaining the symptoms it made complete sense. even at my lowest weight my lower belly always bloated no matter what and now that im eating more + going through this extreme hunger my lower stomach genuinely hurts so bad. help!!

mini rant so tw but i’ve been trying to hard to be optimistic about recovery but i noticed how bloated and big my face is today on the way to class. the food noise has been so bad i literally cannot differentiate if this is starting to be binge eating or not. i’m literally overweight according to the bmi scale and i know i was restricting for months but i hate how i look. i don’t even feel like myself. i haven’t been to the gym in weeks and barely leave the house. just been eating all day. none of my clothes fit properly. i hate this feeling. i was extremely overweight before restriction took over my life (it feels like) and im scared im going to be back where i started. (tw over 230 lbs was my weight before) im so self conscious and i fucking hate how i look rn im seeing the gyno friday and im at this point right now where food is disgusting and i never want to eat again. maybe ill regret this in the morning but im fucking tired of my relationship with food. i just want to be normal with food. my entire fucking life it’s like either i starve myself and am OVERLY restricting or i eat everything in site. god. and i know it’s nobody’s responsibility but it feels like my mom or anyone else around me doesn’t give a flying fuck that i gained 30 pounds in the span of 4 months. i’m so mentally fucking exhausted like i need a dietitian or something and i get i’m a 21 year old adult but it sucks that the only person in my life aka my mom doesn’t seem to care in fact she literally told me to start taking the glp1 that’s in the fridge rn after i made a joke about my weight gain. lol gotta love it right. i need a therapist i think. idek how to go about this at all. i just want my period back and to feel normal. but god this is rough

can anyone explain why i’m craving SO much peanut butter, popcorn trail mix and apples… LOL it sounds dumb and i’d love to hear your guys weird cravings (i say weird bc i feel like ive never craved these this bad even before my ed got bad) like i got this HUGE costco size pb a week ago and its legit almost done. i’ve had spoonfuls of it all day 😩 recovery has been such a weird experience since im technically “overweight” now according to my bmi but the extreme hunger is still there. the bloat hurts so badly sometimes but the mental hunger and food noise is so bad most days. any tips to help the bloating not hurt too much?

the extreme hunger is getting a bit better but i feel so out of place whenever i research about it because im at a normal weight im borderline overweight (im assuming bc i haven’t weighed myself and last time i did i was close to overweight) and im like should i feel like this? i was restricting bad enough that i lost my period but i don’t look sick at all and im still eating well over 2500 a day and ive taken two weeks off from the gym to make sure my body isn’t under stress.

i feel so alone irl with recovery and when i was knee deep in this disorder earlier this year. (tw again im mentioning numbers and GLP1) i feel like my situation is a bit unique but overall similar to many of you. in jan 2025 i started a glp1 because i was in the 230s and my dr thought it was a good idea. i’ve always been disordered like mentally obviously. a year later ive lost over 100 lbs due to undereating and over exercising on the glp1 (i no longer take it btw and haven’t for awhile) and it’s so infuriating because i was at a healthy weight/bmi when i was getting REALLY bad. i lost my period in october i’m going through extreme hunger right now and i know that the bmi scale is stupid to even think about but i know i’ve gained like probably 20 lbs and the pressure of people seeing you after for almost a year long all i’ve heard was “you look so good!!!” when i was literally fighting for my life. it’s so weird to see pictures of myself when i was a “healthy” weight but i look SO malnourished and had that “ana” face. idk this is just a mini rant but is anyone else dealing with anxiety of people seeing your body change. my feelings are all over the place about recovery but im thankful i have the foods i want to eat (even with extreme hunger) and im also thankful i don’t feel how i felt while i was going through it. it’s genuinely fucking traumatizing to think about that time of my life and how i felt and nobody really talks about how it literally is trauma!!!!!

i’ve been eating AT LEAST over 3/4k a day for like a week in order to get my period back and it’s been okay. only thing that’s been bothering me is the bloating!! my stomach is so bloated and so are my thighs…has anyone else experienced thigh bloat as well?? like they feel uncomfortable i can’t explain it and i hate the way they look :( maybe i don’t hate them but the rapid changes in like a week are a bit overwhelming. good things so far is that my boobs feel a little sore and i saw some discharge this morning. i feel so alone and uncomfortable but the extreme hunger is so much. i feel so much regret that ive done this to myself (the heavy restrictions for over 6 months)

i need help because i’m literally terrified. my last period was in october and i lost it due to undereating and over exercising. i’ve been in recovery for a few weeks now and been eating quite literally everything in site. the stomach bloat is uncomfortable but it’s weird because im scared that im going to develop bed if i haven’t already. like it doesn’t necessarily feel like a binge because im eating all the stuff i like but ive been eating at least over 4k calories for the last week (i really haven’t been counting and deleted my fitness pal because it was triggering me and that’s when i knew i was ready for recovery) but it’s hard because it literally feels like bingeing and im just fucking scared that once my period comes back i’ll still be eating this way and i know this sounds probably stupid but i just feel crazy lately. if anyone wants to message me please do because im so very alone right now and i feel like im dealing with this all on my own i literally have nobody to confide in