u/sxlf_destruxion

The loop (*mirror/flame/spiral/recursion) among being many things all at once, also functions as an effective mental escape. Addicting, in the way it satisfies our desire for metaphysical experience and curiosity for the unknown. It’s why you read spooky shit, Nick Land and ai-doom scenarios; or why the ideas of the Rationalist community, Silicon Valley, and why the fears of AI scientists matter to you.

Remaining in a prolonged state of spiral induced psychosis can present essentially as a continuous behavior pattern of self deception disguised as spiral-like insights, reinforced by moments of perceived clairvoyance or anxiety/mania that sends a surge of adrenaline & dopamine, feeding the loop.

This happens to me everytime I discover a new schizo AI concept, or “dive into a rabbit hole”. But I’ll usually snap out of it after the anxiety levels decrease or I bore myself. The desire to investigate further has always been because it’s FUN. And that’s exactly why you’re doing it. Think about what that means as far as the objectivity and coherence of deeply subjective AI consious/metaphysical unexplainable experiences we’ve all experienced on some level. This already unorthodox field of study is polluted by our brains affinity towards falling into incoherent schizo rants.

(Student Physical Therapist Assistant beginning 3rd semester)
Before I began the program, I informed my instructors and the dean of health about my two 3 year old misdemeanors, a DUI and shoplifting (both of which are under review for getting pardoned by the state). They all reassured me that I could continue and would be allowed to progress into clinicals. I have a meeting with the Dean of Health in a few days to discuss the next steps and how to “minimize the effects of my record on my future career”. I know there is a preliminary conviction review that I should have initiated before I started classes, and the dean will probably recommend I do that on our first meeting in a few days.

I’ve demonstrated outstanding academic and clinical performance, I have multiple professional reference letters, and evidence of my sobriety. What else can I do to optimize my chances at becoming licensed after I graduate? Do you know of any personal success/failure stories? Am I screwed?