A key stage of healing...
I (41, late diagnosed ASD) have been wondering why I don't identify with Spock as intensely as I did in my 20s. Don't get me wrong, Vulcan logic remains superior to stereotypical humanoid emotion. I just don't directly identify as strongly. I realize I first latched onto Spock because he was often ridiculed for his logic and mannerisms as much as I was by people I thought were friends. I loved watching Spock because he would take the burns, and get his revenge by saving the day with smirk or an eyebrow raise. Spock showed me an example of what belonging might look like in a hostile social environment. For at least 5 years, I invoked his name to describe myself as an expression of my value and as a test of people's capacity to accept difference.
Turns out, most people I was trying to reach do not have such a nuanced view of Star Trek. Haha. But also probably something about realizing I am more than how I am perceived and some work on self-acceptance. 🙃