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Alright, this is probably the most vulnerable thing I’ve ever posted, but I’m honestly out of options.

I was supposed to graduate this spring, but I had one required course left that I needed to retake. I’m currently waiting on my final grades to find out if I passed and can graduate. I was able to use financial aid, loans, and a graduation grant to stay in NYU housing through the first summer session, but I have to move out this weekend.

The problem is that I have nowhere to go.
I’m originally from Texas, but returning home isn’t an option. My family experienced an eviction, and my mom is currently living in a homeless shelter. I don’t have any family I can stay with, i’m the oldest it’s just me and her my step sisters live w their step father (not mine), or a stable place to return to.

I’ve been applying for jobs every day for months. Before anyone says I’m not trying hard enough, I promise I am. I’ve sent out countless applications and have just been getting rejection after rejection.

I’ve looked into sublets (Snag, Ohana, Facebook groups, etc.), but they have been a bust, no responses back on any. I only have about $2,000 saved, I don’t have an income yet, I don’t have a guarantor, and my credit is poor because of family-related issues from when I was younger, so renting has been almost impossible.
I met with NYU Basic Needs, and from what I understand, the main option they could offer me right now is helping me enter the shelter system. I’ve experienced homelessness before, and I’m honestly terrified of ending up back there after working so hard to finish college.
I’m posting because I genuinely don’t know what else to do. If anyone has been in a similar situation, knows of legitimate short-term housing resources, sublets that don’t require a guarantor, emergency programs, or literally anything I may not have thought of, I would be incredibly grateful.

Hi everyone, I'm not even sure if this is the right subreddit, but I'm honestly getting desperate and could really use some advice.

I'm taking Calculus I for the second time, and I genuinely don't know what I'm doing wrong. I study for hours, watch YouTube videos, go to lectures, do practice problems, and sometimes I leave thinking, "Wait...I actually kind of get this now." Then I take an exam and end up with a 20–25%, and it feels like everything I learned just disappears.

The biggest problem is that I don't feel like I'm actually understanding the material. It feels like I'm just trying to memorize steps instead of learning why anything works. When I'm watching lectures or videos, it honestly feels like a bunch of symbols and rules are being thrown at me. As soon as trig, the unit circle, (e^x), (\ln), logarithms, or multiple concepts in one problem come up, my brain completely checks out. I don't even know where to start.

For context, I don't usually struggle like this in school. I've done well in my other classes, so I know I'm capable of learning. Calculus is just the one class that has absolutely humbled me, and I can't figure out why it won't click.

Tomorrow I have an exam covering L'Hôpital's Rule, the Critical Value and Extreme Value Theorems, the Mean Value Theorem, graph analysis (increasing/decreasing, concavity, etc.), definite integrals, and finding area and distance. Then I have a cumulative final next week.

I've also been trying to memorize the unit circle forever, and I still blank on it during exams. I know my trig foundation isn't great, and I'm sure that's making calculus even harder.

To make things worse, this is my last chance to pass Calculus I. I literally need this class to graduate, so the pressure is pretty overwhelming.

I'm not looking for shortcuts or for someone to magically make me pass. I genuinely want to understand why this isn't clicking because I feel like I've put in so much time and effort, and it still feels like I'm missing some fundamental piece that everyone else seems to have.

Has anyone else been in this position? What actually helped you? Books, YouTube channels(org chem tutor), websites(Pauls math notes), study methods, practice resources(problem sets, webassign, khan academy)literally anything. If there's a Calculus for Dummies x 1000 resource that explains everything from the ground up, I would be incredibly grateful, i just dont know what to do anymore or how to make it click.

Thanks for reading. I know I can't master an entire semester overnight, but I really want to give myself the best chance possible on these next two exams.