u/thinkin-thoughts

ok i know this is totally irrational but it's still one of my biggest fears. the main reason i got a hysto was bc i was still bleeding after being on birth control for 2 years and E blockers and T for 7 years which was a huge source of dysphoria for me. i also have a HUGE fear of pregnancy. even with birth control and everything, i'd often be afraid something went wrong after bottoming and i somehow did get pregnant. it got to the point that it was impacting my enjoyment of sex at times. i'm post op now and kept both of my ovaries since they looked healthy and that was my surgeon's recommendation. i've come off of E blockers and birth control since they're no longer necessary for bleeding and pregnancy prevention. but, now i have a lingering fear that i'll ovulate into my abdominal cavity, a sperm will slip through the vaginal cuff, and i'll have an ectopic pregnancy. i know it's unlikely but the mere possibility is keeping my irrational brain on alert and making me fear post op sex (which sucks since part of the point of this surgery for me was to fix my feelings around sex). would this be a crazy concern to bring to my surgeon and/or therapist? i want to be able to go back to sex as soon as i'm cleared and able to do so but i also would love to not live with this fear forever.

recovery's going surprisingly well! i ended up getting super nervous going into surgery and crying a little but my team was super kind and helpful. i woke up to minimal pain or nausea. i was worried about the catheter, especially removing it. can't say it was great but they had 2 nurses help me so it was quick. peeing still hurt the rest of the day tho. plus, i was soooooo tired like could hardly keep my eyes open just to eat and take meds.

yesterday was fine. much less tired, peeing was easier, and i was up walking more. my bleeding slowed to almost a full stop, thank god. my back was the worst pain, weirdly, followed by some sharp pangs under my incisions every so often. overall, it's totally tolerable tho with my meds. also, figured out how to cough without pain. pillow pressed against my abdomen and a slow inhale before coughing weakly. i haven't had like an emergency choking on liquid or smth cough yet nor a sneeze, both of which i'm more nervous for, but at least i've figured out how to get the phlegm in my throat moving.

this morning, i pooped. i've been really nervous to poop because of stories on here and the general hysto subreddit but it actually went alright. i'm taking stool softeners and just waited till i felt the shit knocking at the door. used a foot stool/squatty potty to elevate my feet and a pillow against my tummy and just relaxed to let it out. it felt like i was straining anyways but i think that was just my butthole opening bc i was being super cognizant of not pushing from my core. i was nervous the whole time but there was pretty much no pain or anything and didn't even take me long. plus, relieved soooo much pressure from my abdomen.

anyways, hoping recovery stays good for me. it's always nice to read positive experiences on here so here's mine! looking forward to my first shower today. i'm kind of getting bored already but i'll figure that out. just taking it slow and steady i guess.

tldr:
- day of was toughest. bleeding, pain to pee, extreme fatigue.
- day 1 was better. peeing and walking easier, less bleeding, taking meds and stool softeners, much less tired.
- day 2 (so far) i pooped without trouble! elevated my feet, braced with a pillow, and relaxed. no pain or anything during and actually relieved some pressure. looking forward to a shower later.

hi all!
i'm 2 days out from my hysto and having a lot of trouble emotionally. i had my estrogen blocker removed and stopped T a week ago as requested by my surgeon. i haven't been off of them in 7 years and it seems my body isn't loving the change. my bf just left to fly home while i'm staying with my parents this summer to recover. i'm having a ton of trouble keeping myself from crying, more so than i ever have when we've separated, even when we were going to be long distance for over 6 months.
have any of you experienced emotional difficulties around your procedures? i'm assuming it's mostly hormonal and am worried that it'll just get worse postop when my body is even more out of wack. if you did have similar troubles, how'd you deal? any advice for coping would be super appreciated!