Does this job ever get better?
Throwaway because I’ve got friends on here. I (23F) have been working as a general dentist for around a year and a half in a public hospital clinic in Aus. I hate it.
During uni I enjoyed most aspects of it, including placements and thought that I’d made the right decision choosing to do this degree. I even did some extra study and exams in prep for wanting to specialise into paeds.
But now I hate it. I hate doing new patient exams, I hate perio cleans, I hate fillings, I hate endo, I hate crowns, I hate bridges, I hate managing overseas implants because nobody else will take them on and patients can’t afford anywhere else. I hate having to do the really hard stuff because nobody else wants to and we’re the ‘last option’. I hate having to do cowboy dentistry. And the manager sucks too because they don’t know anything about dental so no meaningful changes are ever made, and they just blame the shortcomings on the clinicians (and in the hospital, the role is just viewed as a progression to a more senior role because the clinic produces good numbers).
Most of all though, I hate the patients. I don’t know if it’s because it’s a public clinic so it’s low health literacies, or if it’s just how people are but it is so exhausting having to constantly manage people with such complexities who are anxious and are scared of everything, while also managing their expectations of what we can and can’t do.
And the parents suck too. My service sees so many kids, and so many of these parents get so angry at the prospect of being told that they need to be brushing their kids teeth and it’s not up to their kid to brush by themselves. And they just keep getting worse.
I don’t want to be yelled at because our next available appointment is in 8 weeks, like I know it sucks and I get it. I don’t want to be told that they hate the dentist and how we’re all butchers and we must love inflicting pain on people. I don’t want to be verbally assaulted and almost physically assaulted by a psych inpatient when they’re already aggro about having a toothache. I don’t want the creepy old men making those suggestive remarks.
I’m really struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel, because so many people talk about how they wanted to quit when they first started but they find their footing eventually, but it just feels like an infinite tunnel of darkness and there’s no way to get out. I’m losing the motivation for this career and just life outside of it. It’s a constant cycle of wake up, go to work, come home, shower, try to sleep, and repeat. And the money isn’t even worth any of it, especially when I know people who work at the shops and get Sunday rates that are equivalent to my salary.
And I feel like it’s reflecting in my work now. I do okay work, it’s not horrendous but it’s not the best. I constantly run late trying to fit in all this treatment because the patients demand it or they make a sob story about it and it feels impossible to say no. I don’t have the energy or even the urge to hang out with friends after work, or do anything really. Sometimes I find myself fantasising about being blipped from reality. But then the thought of the struggle with an already stretched patient base and the extra stress on the other clinicians just makes it feel so selfish to think like that.
I don’t feel like I can leave this profession, my parents are both in healthcare and sacrificed a lot to get me through dental school. They’re also asian.
I just want to know if it ever stops feeling like this or do people just find other ways to get by.
Any opinions or advice is deeply appreciated.
tldr: I so far hate this job and where I work, and does it ever end