u/throwaway_IFU

Throwaway account for obvious reasons…
I recently joined a new school, was there 2 weeks, accidentally harmed a child through means which definitely could have been avoided but I didn’t assess the risk properly and the poor kid was hurt because of a direct result of my actions… I rlly did f up. Investigations, police interviews and disciplinary hearing have all led to being dismissed from a teaching role. My written outcome letter, says it will be on my file till I retire and it will be referred to DBS and the Teaching Regulation Agency (TRA) (as I hold QTS but was doing TA role… didn’t even get to start my ECT yet 🥺)
At the moment I feel like I’m in limbo and unsure what my actual future options are.
What I’m trying to understand is what tf do I expect next and any insight or advice.
I am not apart of a union, I don’t have any help, I don’t even think I’ve properly processed this.

I effed up massively and need insight

Edit:
I see context is important so here goes, I’m going to say it for fact rather than gloss over anything

I was walking past a reception student whose chair was sticking out and the children behind him were lining up for lunch, I bumped into his chair, I said to him oh let’s tuck our chair in, he tried, couldn’t, the teacher who was sat with him (as he was in reflection for whatever reason) said that’s the second person to tell u that. Now he’s already “in trouble”, teachers are now telling him to do something he physically can’t, I thought let me help… I thought it I tried to push the chair in it’ll lift and he will fall toward the table, so in a split misjudged wrong decision, I held the chair by the back (for support and firmness) and used my feet to nudge the chair by making contact with my foot and the foot of the chair, to nudge it forward bit by bit so when he’s close ish he won’t be sticking out. Well the chair he was sat on was your standard school chair and the table was a low, wooden one. This caused the legs of the child to become struck/stuck/caught by the bottom edge of the table, leading to bruising (red marks at the time).

The allegation is “… you repeatedly kicked the back of a chair in which a pupil was seated and caused the child to be pushed into the table and to sustain harm”

My context: I’m 27, I started working in education as a nursery apprentice at 17, did breakfast and afterschool stuff too, went to uni at 20, graduated 25 (4 year course + one year of leave), then worked in nursery, supply and as a PT TA along supply, this school I was a HLTA and I was only there 2 weeks… the incident happened on the second Friday of me being there…

Afterwards:
School- did an investigation, didn’t respond to my query about asking if he’s ok- so I didn’t push more- saying I lack insight, responsibility or care for the child, rather I discussed what had happened (I was honest from the get go, i understand all things considered and I think I’ll forever feel awful about that poor baby)
Police- thought the school was hiding the fact that they didn’t give me positive handling training (as they never disclosed it) and instead of arrest I had to write a letter of apology to the mum as a form of restorative justice
Disciplinary decision- the letter just says “The Trust has a duty to report instances where a teacher ceases to be employed for reasons of misconduct or incompetence to the Teachers Regulation Agency and/or DBS.”

To be transparent I was open, honest, reflective, professional throughout the process and if I could go back in time I really would, I had to fight so many odds just to get into university and then so many just to get the actual degree let alone build a reputation I ruined in a matter of less than 5 minutes. I know where I went wrong, i understand the concern, I don’t know what to do now.