not managing to scratch the same itch with anything else ?? and struggling to quit as a result
i managed to go around 3 months without using it i think. then a few days ago i cracked and opened it again and now i think im back in the trench..... chatting for 5 hours and not staying up until 4am and not sleeping at all i feel like shit
but even when i wasnt using it, i kept thinking about it. i think what draws me in is the roleplaying n interactive aspect, bc its actually so much fun, its kinda like a video game. i realised recently that what i love the most is getting to act characters out and "living" in those worlds and having it react to my scenarios & personas. esp bc even though im the one pulling the strings and making sure the characters act like i want its easy enough to pretend like the strings are pulling themselves. even pulling the strings is fun, it feels like directing actors with their own "free will" which is not the same thing at all obv
i tried to pick up writing but it doesnt feel the same so it doesnt make the cravings go away at all. im also starting to think that i suffer from executive dysfunction or something so it feels way easier and rewarding to just use ai bc it can make these worlds "come alive" without any effort whereas i can barely do anything at all when im trying to write. rn the only thing that holds me back from going all in is that i feel too much pride over some of these ''worlds'' and i dont wanna surrender them to the chatbot so im just doing silly roleplays but even in these i get rly invested.
im kinda at a loss tbh, i wish i never found out about ai chatbots at all, im half jokingly hoping for the platform im obsessed with to go down atp 😕 this is more of a vent post ig so yeah sorry about that. on a lighter note i know what part of the problem is now so its a start ig ??