dear experienced tweakers, give me some wisdom
i know that i should probably stop using speed, at the bare minimum for a while until im done with a bunch of annoying life shit but as dumb as it sounds i dont seem to care enough or something i keep saying fuck it and take it again, probably not because im sad or dealing with withdrawal or shit like that (also not using it to get stuff done), maybe to pass time idk, im maybe having other drugs to push buttons in my brain will be usefull but im too lazy to deal with that and now that i write it it sounds dumb. my dumbass maybe doesnt care because its not last minute urgency rn but a part of me is saying that my speed habits are kindof retarded and that this will be a problem soon,with more emphasis on that my speed habits are retarded, like even the responsible side of me doesnt care that much lol
if any of yall have been in a similar situation share your wisdom pls
i didnt yap too much