u/verdieah

Hey there, I really don't know if I am posting this in the right subreddit but I wanted to share my fear from my regression therapy that has been eating me alive for the past four-five years.

When I was 14-15 years old and have been struggling a lot with my mental health and nightmares, my mom has discovered a therapist that does mainly past life regression but sometimes combines it into future life regression just for you to see how you'll succeed and if you'll fulfill your life purpose or something. My relatives had positive experiences with this therapist so I thought why not.

The session was very professional and first the therapist sat me down and asked me what has been weightening me down lately and what I would like to dig into alongside the journey to my past life. I mentioned that I have been rather stressed with my portfolio to an art school I wanted to go to and that I was struggling with my dad because of some really unpleasant nightmares about him (won't dig into it so I don't trigger anyone). The main purpose of this session was to go as far into the past as possible to see where and why my developmental dysphasia started and what my main purpose in life is.

After hearing me out I was instructed to lay down and the regression started. To make it as short as possible I will say that I have gotten far into the past to see myself in my mother's womb when she was 6 months pregnant and to see my life purpose is to create. Alongside that we discovered my developmental dysphasia was probably caused by doctors taking me away from my mother as soon as I was born which caused me to have severe anxiety and abandonment issues. During all this my mother was in the room and was confirming the little details I saw and felt.

However later on we tried to see if I would get accepted into my dream art school to which it felt very distant and unclear but I saw myself holding a piece of paper celebrating. That's when things don't get accurate that much or it gets confusing. Years later I didn't get accepted into my dream art school, but not into the degree I wanted and I have gotten refused twice before I finally got there. If we want to dig into details, I also didn't find out I got accepted via letter but through the school calling my mom that there is a free place for me to get, during that call I wasn't even there.

Now, to get to the most nerve wrecking part for me that without any guidance or instructions right after seeing the school thing I saw myself getting hit by a car on the street and then I was absorbed by light. What I felt during that scene, which is hard to explain, was that it happened when I was 20 years old and right before I was about to graduate. I am 19 right now, my birthday is in march and graduation happens next year around may-june. Which means I may die in less than a year due to a car accident around march-june.

I haven't told many people about this, especially not to my family. The only current friend that knows about it told me that it probably doesn't necessarily mean I may die this way but it probably shows how I died in my past life. I would like her to be right, but my anxiety and fear of death and not experiencing my life to the fullest is eating me alive. It just doesn't add up due to the order of how the session went in my opinion and I don't know what to do or how to deal with it. I also am scared to be thinking about it because what if I accidentally manifest it.

I am sorry for dumping this personal struggle to random people in a random subreddit but I just wanted to share this struggle somewhere. I am scared to tell my closest friends so I don't seem insane or manipulative so that they spend more time with me you know. That is why I needed to tell some strangers and hope that someone experienced will tell me I am gonna be fine.