I feel embarrassed about my trigger, and I think I always will
So I definitely have VVS, I've been trying to discuss it in therapy, but even then I'm struggling to even tell my own therapist what my trigger is. It's a mix of the embarrassment, and the VVS symptoms starting to come up whenever I try to talk about it, because just THINKING about it gets me worked up and dizzy. Anyway, my trigger is something that seems to only be unique to me, like I've searched all over reddit and the internet and I can't find anyone who shares my trigger. I've tried to discuss it with those I am close with and they always think I'm lying. Why would I lie about something so specific and odd? My trigger is lotion but more specifically sunscreen. Started when I was a child and I had too much of it on my skin. Felt sick and faint until it wasn't on me anymore. Then ever since then I've fainted in response to others using it or have come close to fainting or have had panic attacks over it. I feel embarrassed. I don't know how to accept it. It's so weird. People thought I'd outgrow it as I grew up but I never did and just last year is when I learned this wasn't just a sensory discomfort thing I was going through but a VVS response. Whenever summertime comes around, I seem to purposefully isolate myself inside just to avoid it at all costs. Which I don't want to do but I also don't want to have an episode in front of people. It's not as bad as it used to be, which I'm grateful for, but I wish it would disappear completely. How do I stop feeling the shame and embarrassment? How can I get people to understand that I am being serious?