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And how do I know how severe my brain fog is like if it’s mild or moderate or severe?

I’m sorry if these questions are redundant, I don’t know how to find the answers to these. Please don’t hate me please. I am working on getting OSA treatment

I have all the usual problems like focus, memory, so on. My mom has to help me (24M) a lot and I struggle to be independent because lots of tasks feel straining. I struggle quite a lot with language and conversation, I cannot remember a single concrete thing that was said in any conversation I’ve ever had and I feel like I rely completely on visual imagery and emotion to remember what people might have said or done. I severely struggle to express myself, the only time I feel like I can be “me” is when I’m texting. It can take me a bit to remember things like what season is it ( I always think the word for whatever season it is currently is spring), doing simple things like making a sandwich for lunch feels challenging like remembering what to do next feels pretty difficult, everything always feels like a dream (like my actions and anything that happens doesn’t matter because everything feels like a dream), and sometimes I can forget why or what I’m doing at the place I am at for a few seconds because it just feels like I’m in bed having a dream.

I have more extreme issues with ruminations and processing things. I have recurring obsessive thoughts about that people don’t listen to me and that people don’t care about me and are out to get me. I try to talk to my therapist about it and i don’t understand what he says to do (which I’ve also talked to him and past therapists about a few times) and even when I take detailed notes I just don’t understand what to do at all. Like for example if I notice that I’m ruminating about that no one care about me I’ll start to try to think “that’s not true. People care about me and I know this because… because they.. because..” and I try over and over again to understand how anyone cares about me and I just can’t remember or understand anything and I’ll end up trying over and over again but just keep failing. I can try to just be like “they care about me they care about me they care about me” but I don’t really believe it even though I try really hard to. I can remember that I have observed in the past moments of feeling cared about but I cannot remember or understand them even if I write them down. I always ignore friends and people that I don’t see regularly because I can’t remember or understand that they’re safe and that they’re not out to get me. The fact that none of my friends ever ask about how I’m doing with this or how is my treatment going or ask any questions about what I’m going through genuinely torments me because I know they would act more caring if my personality wasn’t sucked out of me

I’m not really understanding how people know how bad their brain fog is, I can’t remember how anything felt at all before I felt like this and this just feels how life is. I thought I was just extremely worthless and lazy for a very long time, I only found out about this stuff because I told my doctor that I feel sleepy all the time and I got a sleep study. In terms of feeling and perception I have absolutely no idea at all what is normal and what is not. Because I can do things like write this post and I go to the gym and I play music really well (according to my peers) or even just the fact that I can draw an analog clock I always have impostor syndrome

I’m glad that I finally found a subreddit of people somewhat like me, even in sleep apnea they don’t understand really. When I try to talk about this everyone always assumes that I just need to go to therapy more, or that I need to stop having a victim complex, or that I just need to do whatever works for them and I will feel better. It makes me feel like no one listens to me and that I’m going to be stuck like this forever because I HAVE already been trying everyone demands that I try and here I am ten years later still stuck in the exact same situation (possibly worse I have no idea if it’s gotten worse, I severely strained myself to act like a normal person for a very long time). I don’t know what I need to do to make people listen to me. I would do anything for people to listen to me. Please don’t hate me for anything I said, a lot of the time people will not listen to me and hate me for something I said and I never understand why. Please. I’m not expecting anyone to cure me or solve all my problems, it’s just nice for people to listen sometimes. I know I need to continue to keep trying to work on mental health, so please don’t try to tell me that that’s not what I said in this post at all please listen to me please

I’m 24M ive had mild OSA (tested 3 times between 8 and 12 over the last year) since I was 13 or 14. I don’t know why but I have severe cognitive symptoms despite only having mild OSA. I spend all day trying to think through things but I have lots of trouble processing things and my mind feels like it’s blank no matter how hard I try to think through things. My mind always feels so blank. I have borderline personality disorder too and during therapy I fail completely to express myself or retain anything. I’ve learned distraction skills but I fail to process skills that make you actually get better no matter how hard I try everyday for years and years. I have a couple plans in mind to end all of these symptoms if I haven’t figured out a way to fix this by the day before my 25th in a couple months. Yes, I’ve told therapists and doctors about these thoughts many times in the past and never once has their response or treatment been helpful for me and MY needs.

I’m getting a MAD device in two weeks and the dentist said I am an optimal candidate for it, I guess we’ll see if it works but I absolutely expect there to be a problem that makes it impossible, either because of my body or the doctor’s negligence. Things like my teeth will probably get too screwed up to continue treatment, or my mouth will just hurt too much to continue treatment, or the doctor will screw up the adjustments, or it won’t even work to reduce my apneas.

I tried CPAP for like 8 months but didn’t tolerate it and never fell asleep for more than fifteen minutes, but the doctors told me to just keep holding on and to just keep dealing with it (in other words, just suffer through hell because I’m too lazy to know what I’m doing as a doctor) Last month I tried BiPap finally and I tried it a few times (on EVERY combination of settings) but still felt uncomfortable so I took it off and cried for hours and had breakdowns everyday the following week thinking about it. I’m really scared to try it again, but I was wondering if in this case it actually is a case of just needing to get used to it because when I “manually” breathe it feels really similar. I feel really, really distraught about it because it feels very difficult for me to try to “think through” how the machine feels or what I should do and doctors are obviously never any help when it comes to these details. I don’t know what to do and I never know what to do and no one ever knows what to do, so why does everyone say to just keep going when obviously it’s never going to be solved if no one ever knows what to do? Genuinely what do I do?? Do I try it again, am I supposed to feel like I’m suffering, how do I even know if it will get more comfortable? No one has ever been able to help me understand what to do.
Doing my own research isn’t just very difficult but it’s also unhelpful

I was wondering if my sensitivity to the breathing has something to do with why I have more severe symptoms despite having mild OSA. No one ever knows what to do and I am too ill to think through these things myself, I need help that apparently just doesn’t exist I guess. Even if I get this fixed, the thought of having to deal with this all over again but even worse as an old person is more than terrifying and it’s hard to feel willing to even entertain the thought of a life where I’m not protected from feeling this way again even if I fix this sleep issue. Life really sucks

Hi, I just want to try to set some of my anxiety at ease. For context I have been having CPAP intolerance for like 8 months, it feels torturous and I cannot even fall asleep with it because it feels suffocating, and yes I’ve tried every single combination of settings (Pressure, EPR, ramp) on the device many, many times.

1. I am actually scheduled to pick up my BiPap on Monday. I do not have a sleep trial scheduled, so I was wondering, they will be changing the pressures based on my sleep data right? Like I don’t have to figure what pressures I need by myself? I am relieved but really worried that there is no trial, maybe it’s because for my CPAP titration I failed it and I only slept 15 minutes in four hours so they decided not to have one? Should I be worried that there’s no titration?

2. My neurologist said that because I’ve been trying EPR 3 on the CPAP then the BiPap probably won’t make much of a difference because I’m already trying a gap of 3? This logic does not make any sense to me, anyone who tries BiPap needs to try CPAP EPR 3 first, so then no one would be using BiPap if it didn’t make a difference from that..

3. I got allergy testing the other day and they did a lung test on me before we started. She seemed like she didn’t know what she was doing, and the first test I kept scoring a very low score, so we switched to a different test and this time I got a normal but low score for a young adult male. I was wondering if maybe my lung capacity/function is lower than average and if this could be why I’m struggling so much with the CPAP, or the reason why I’m having such severe symptoms for only having mild sleep apnea.

Thank you in advance