Extremely depressed
I've only been leaking for about a month and my symptoms are so severe that I can't even prop my head up most days, I haven't been able to work ever since this started even though I work from home and am on 300mg of caffeine, 300mg of theophylline, 2000mg of paracetamol and 50-75mg of hydroxyzine daily.
I already had some previous health struggles that affected my daily functioning but nothing as incredibly disabling as this. My doctor won't prescribe stronger painkillers so I'm basically bedridden.
I got a blind blood patch last week after spending a week at the hospital and feel like it did nothing. Now desperately trying to find someone that does guided blood patches and doesn't have an insane wait time since there are very little resources available in my country.
All of this is incredibly taxing for my mental health since I can barely do anything and it's hard to find joy in life when all you do is watch videos and consume content. I am also stressing about having to go back to work next week and not knowing how to make it through the day.
How do people deal with this condition for years? I already feel like I can't go on living like this, and I am pretty hopeless right now.