Scariest trip I’ve ever had almost costed my relationship - pls ttm about this lol I’m still kinda scared
So I’m kind of a dumbass, and 3 hours into a 5g trip, I decided to take 2.5g ish more + smoke an extra fat bowl. I then called my girlfriend and had this horrifyingly real encounter with what seemed to be some demon or evil spirit living in my house. My girlfriend’s voice became distorted over the phone seemingly at random, in accordance with some super scary shifts in candle lighting. Think candles flickering violently in an evil-feeling way, where I could almost read the flickerings as reading lips - I actually was finding meaning in the flickers as if they were controlled by something. As I’m increasingly losing track of reality, these distortions of her voice paired with this evil dominating presence scared me badly enough to scream at the top of my lungs a couple times, feeling like something was attacking me or threatening my girlfriend. She handled this as well as she could but I was far past the stage of where I could be comforted. For at least 2 more hours, I had these constant back and forth shifts from overwhelming love for my girlfriend to immense fear of what was in my house and what its intentions were. I felt as if this being wanted me to keep its presence a secret and that it would be mad if I told my girlfriend. After enough internal pep talk, I spoke to my girlfriend about my fears at hand and that’s when things got even worse. Increasingly terrifying visuals of my girlfriend’s distorted face, the sounds of the call distorting, and some suuuuper confusing multidimensional visuals ended up in me losing track of reality almost completely, begging for this trip to be over. At one point, I was considering the possibility of my girlfriend being the demon, and that this bad trip was her paranormal side showing itself because she wanted me to admit a past wrongdoing. I somehow convinced myself that the only way out of the trip was to confess to her my every possible sin that I had committed during our relationship. Although I haven’t done anything crazy like cheating, I did lie to her about my failure to quit vaping as well as hide some mental health struggles, which I came clean to her about during my attempts to calm this paranormal being. However, the bad trip symptoms kept getting worse and worse, plus I kept losing more track of reality.
I then convinced myself that my internal intrusive thoughts were realities, such as some pretty nasty ones surrounding cheating, sexual stuff and me generally just being a bad person. Long story short for this section of the trip - I desperately tried to calm the “demon” by professing my “sins” to it, but the trip kept getting worse, I kept getting more confused, so I basically started spewing B.S. professions that I had never actually done, because I was trying to crack some code of the right thing to say in order to get out of this limbo. By this point, time had slowed to a halt, I was in full belief that some type of paranormal stuff was at play, AND I kept getting these weird alien-orgy visual things that I don’t even know how to begin to describe.
You can probably imagine how my sin confession rambling sounded to my sober girlfriend. Not great. After coming down we talked about it, even though my lingering fear from the trip never fully left. Luckily she believed me when I told her I’ve never cheated on her and all that other stuff that I hadn’t actually done but said that I did. However she feels skeptical, especially because I apparently was pretty detailed about these “things I never did”. If any of this makes sense.
It’s also worth noting that it hasn’t been too long since my girlfriend and I watched the horror movie obsession, which scared me half to death in theaters. I think some of those subconscious fears came up during the trip.
Now I’m left with a slightly tense situation in my relationship and a seriously scary feeling of not being alone/safe in my own home.
Have any of you guys had any weird experiences with inhuman presences? Any weird reality confusions where you thought you had done stuff you never actually did? How have yall dealt with moving past that lingering paranoia from a bad trip?
Any type of advice or comments are welcome, even if it’s not something I directly asked about. I kinda just need to talk about this experience to get it off my chest