u/yiofjoseon2020

Spoiler: rant

Hello everyone. I just wanted to get this off my chest and maybe provide another voice in this community.

Just finished an interview for an internship, and I may be being too hard on myself, but I do not think that went well. The interview was slated for 30 minutes, and it ended in 17 minutes, with the interviewer being very unresponsive to my answers. I am in the policy/public service sector, so if you ask me about the policy, I can research it well and provide a good answer. I just did not expect a question like "what topic would you give a TED Talk on?"

I am literally a college graduate and have the exact qualifications and experience they were looking for, and I got caught looking like a deer in the headlights when asked situational questions. I am not careless or reckless when it comes to these jobs when I am doing the job, but I just can never formulate the right response during the interview process.

I also get debilitating anxiety to the point where if I have an interview scheduled for Friday, I will be nervous about it from Monday to Thursday, and to the point where I am fidgeting during the interview. It's def gotten better as I've gained more experience, but today felt like I a beginner.

I just don't know what to think anymore. I've had interviews for jobs where I knew I shouldn't have heard back but got a second round, and I've also had interviews where the recruiter will tell me to my face that they like my resume, they like my experience, and that they like how I have direct transitional skills relevant to that job, just for me to get ghosted in the end.

I am starting to think that I cannot blame the market or AI or whatever. No, I literally cannot communicate my skills at all, and interviews are often the last thing for me in the hiring process.

Just really sad and disappointed. Not trying to oversell my problems or undersell the frustrations felt by those who have been at this for years instead of months. Just really annoyed, and hopefully someone else could see this and feel better about themselves.

I recently checked my OAM account to just see my previous application to Senate offices and none of my submissions had saved. I submitted these applications about a month ago. I have the email confirmation saying my application was submitted but after logging in, it’s as if I hadn’t even started it. I wanted to ask if anybody knows if the office got my application from my original submission, or if it is based on what is uploaded onto OAM (I.e. do they see the same blank application page as I do on my end?).

Please let me know as there were so many offices I applied to and it would be a shame if none of them saved. Kind of freaking out as I don’t know what happened and deadlines are approaching. Thank you!!!