u/younggeezer109

I am starting to suspect that I was in the Australian version of GATE in the 2000s. I don’t have a lot of memories, but the main one is the hearing tests. Lots and lots of hearing tests, even though I had no hearing issues.

It is also crazy how many of the typical GATE characteristics I share, and this is something that I am truly astonished by.
About me:

Assessed as gifted, probably ND; High IQ; Never broken a bone; Multicoloured eyes (hazel/blue); Ancestor was a Freemason; Grandfather was high up government; Mother and self both have been in low level government roles; Israeli father; Born en caul; Difficult birth; Did not breathe after birth; Nearly drowned as a baby; First born; Obsessed with MK Ultra as a teenager; Multiple personalities; Depression/Anxiety; Unexplained, exaggerated competitive streak; Recurrent nightmares of drowning since toddlerhood; Speech therapy; Weird coincidences in own life and mother’s life; INFP; Probably psychic and has psychic best friend of 10+ years; Cannot handle multiple sounds at once; Difficulty understanding what people are saying.

My post got removed from the main sub even though the title was literally asking the mods to keep it up. I’ve tried so many times to post on that sub and I get removed every time

Half the time I try to post here, I’m stopped by one of the auto rules, but I am desperate.

I have OCD and health anxiety, along with grandiose delusional thinking and hyper empathy. There is an influencer I have come across by the name of T**** R***, I won’t put her name here because her content is so incredibly triggering for people with HA. Maybe someone people know her. She has one of the worst lives I have ever come across, and it’s gotten to the point where the life of this complete stranger half the world away from me has become more important than my own. My OCD and magical thinking leads me to thinking that I am the one who is supposed to save her, but I don’t know how. There’s nothing I can do to save her, and I feel so completely and utterly helpless. Then there is the more selfish fear that I will face the same fate. How am I supposed to keep going knowing that I can’t take her pain away?!?! I’m stuck, I don’t know what to do. I don’t have access to therapy due to cost reasons.

Okay, fine, I’m with the provider starting with T. Blame me all I want, I just wanted to be with a provider that didn’t leak my data everywhere and have outages every two days.

These days, I find my internet virtually unusable these days. I live in the inner suburbs When I’m walking along the street, it’s rare that I am able to use even simple things like Google and Spotify. Nothing loads properly, everything is slow - and weirdly, the more regional I go, the better the internet is. Last time I had decently fast internet, I was visiting DAYLESFORD. Recently, I was in a shopping centre cafe and I had satellite connection. I was in Richmond, not on Mount Everest!

So I want to ask, is it just me? Is it just time for a new phone? Or are we all just walking around Melbourne with no internet like it’s 1995?